I made a decision as of March 1st ~ no more....no more of "this" April. I am so tired of feeling bad....out of breath, out of shape and overweight.  I have really packed on the pounds and got so unhealthy.  I have always "weighed" heavy...meaning....one of my nick names affectionately called to me by some family was "lead butt".  I have always heard, "you don't look that heavy" ~ which I guess is a good thing...but I have always FELT heavy.  I currently weigh more now that I did being 9 months pregnant with either one of my children ~ are you kidding me?! (no...I am not!)

Last week, I weighed 196lbs at the Doctors office.  Due to the "lead butt" syndrome, I have never really kept track of my weight by actually getting on a scale  but rather went by how my clothes fit.  I can tell you they are all fitting tight now...actually, I did break down and buy a few larger sizes - for comfort.  So, I never thought that I would have such a problem with my weight and how hard it is to get motivated.  My knees hurt, my back aches, my shins ache, and i get winded and light-headed fairly easy...I am in a sad, sad state of unhealthiness.  NO MORE!  I am moving beyond this.

I am just about mortified at the state of my physical condition.  Where did the uber competitive, soccer kicking ~ basketball pounding ~ volleyball spiking chick go?! How easy it has been since starting back to college to just "sit".  Life happened and I got caught up in the Arbys fast lane...along with McDs....Subway...Pizza Hut....Wheat State....Jimmy Johns....Braums....dang the fast food!!  It is like I have been in a coma.  It was only 5 years ago ~ wow it has been 5 years....that I was in pretty damn good condition - physically.  I had quit smoking and was walk/jog 6 miles a day.  Mentally was an entirely different story - HA!  I guess the milestones add up and can slip away if I am not mindful.

Two of my major milestones still worth celebrating:  March 16th will mark 13 years of alcohol/drug free life. & July 30th will be 5 years of cigarette smoke-free living.  NOW....I am going to get with the fitness and nutrition program.  I am going to lose this spare tire and get in better physical condition.  I will be tracking my progress and using the *free* website sparkpeople.com for this journey ~ wanna join me?  :)   I need an accountability partner.
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